I say this because I pulled off something that some other "mature" people might not be able to do.
My ex best friend came into my work today with her fiance and a mutual friend of ours. I took them as my last table of the night. Not only did I manage to exchange words with her and her fiance whom I hated a year ago (an honestly, still dislike), but I still did things that I would have done if we were still friends. I made her milk shake for her and made it with real ice cream instead of shake base and made sure her fries were fresh.
People keep telling me how terrible she looks. People say shes getting fat and that she looks miserable. I didnt see that tonight. She looked happy and talkative. maybe because Jake was with them, Im not sure. but even her fiance spoke to me and we talked about dropping food and spilling drinks, even had a little laugh about how its a good thing I only spilled water all over myself once rather than shakes or milk... It was all very civil.
I cant deny that i miss her more than anything. We were best friends for eight years, that obviously means more to me than it does to her.
I guess when it boils down to it, I dont think I fully realized the consequences of the tings I said about her fiance last summer. I guess in a perfect world, she would have cared about what I thought of him, she would have considered it, she wouldnt have started dating someone who was known to have an unreasonable hatred toward me. She wouldnt have cut me off like that.
I dont think I completely understood that I would lose her altogether.
Saturday, August 24, 2013
Thursday, August 22, 2013
Cat Bite
My friend Abby found a cat living in the El Mariachi parking lot here in town and I agreed to go with her to feed it because, for some reason, she was afraid to go alone. I guess because it was night time but sometimes the poor girl worries too much. Anyway, he a sweet bengal of some sort, skin and bones, dehydrating, and his fur is really coarse. He does this little nervous thing where he kind of kneads the ground as hes thinking about walking up to you. I think hes been mistreated. Not only that, but if given enough time, the cat will become ferral, hes already some of the way toward becoming so. he needs someone to take him, someone with patience who can work on him. Hes a sweet cat once he decides you aren't going to hurt him and he WANTS to be loved, he rubs on you and purrs and doesnt want you to stop petting him. the only time I had problems with him was when I tried to pick him up.....
This is what my hand looked like the next morning after I had attempted to scruff him and carry him to the car. I had him scruffed properly, at first, but he jerked and my grip moved, I guess, and he fought wildly, biting me two or three times and clawing the shit out of my hand. I couldn't blame him for it, it was my own fault I tried to pick up a stray cat and he got scared, I think.
I called PAWS, our local no kill animal shelter and they told me that there was no animal control in our county and that if the cat were to be brought in, I had to bring him in myself. The lady was VERY rude and unhelpful, though Im not sure why I was surprised, every time I've been up there, the person I've dealt with was highly unfriendly and grumpy. I wanted to go up there while my hand was still in bad shape and tell them "THIS is what happens when you say that to people!" Also, she lied about animal control, I knew this as soon as she said it because my room mate's mom is an animal control officer. ANIMAL CONTROL SHARES A BUILDING WITH PAWS! So this lady... They need to get rid of her, hes either stupid or just THAT unpleasant.
-- On that note, is it too much to ask that the people working in animal hospitals, shelters, and clinics be friendly? The techs (or maybe they're just office people and not techs, one cant always be sure) who work in the little veterinary clinic I take Nymeria to tend to be unfriendly. There's a couple who are nice but a couple of them are just very short with you when you have questions. The vets themselves are very friendly, however and that makes up for a lot of it.
Anyhow, I went to work the day the above picture was taken and went straight to the office to bandage my hand and fingers. My boss walked in and looked at my hand covered in blue bandaids and said "I don't think I can let you work like that." she was less concerned about how my hand looked all wrapped in blue than she was about the amount of swelling that had happened slowly throughout the day, slowly enough that I hadn't really noticed it. She sent me home and instructed me to go straight to the ER.
Evan drove me. It took two hours for them to get me into a room divided by two curtains. Then for another two hours I listened to an elderly man continuously tell his wife "Just let me know, whatever you need, I'll get it for you. whatever you need." I felt awful. For at least the last thirty minutes or so, I had fallen asleep. The doctor finally came in and looked at my hand, she drew lines around the swelling and took me to do a test or two and x ray my hand. After that I had to file a report of the animal bite to be sent to Animal Control, I was sure to underline the part where PAWS had told me there was no animal control in this county.
It also turned out that one of the cooks from work was in the room on the other side of me with his girlfriend (who is also one of our waitresses). Turns out poor Eric had slipped and landed with his hand on the grill. I guess our location had a nice string of bad luck that night
Anyway, my hand is fine. They gave me antibiotics and some ointment cream stuff to put on the punctures. The swelling is down almost to zero, just hurts if I hit my hand on anything now. I know now just how bad a seemingly harmless cat bite can be. There's a LOT of bacteria in a cat's mouth. Bites are HIGHLY likely to get infected.
The purple lines are the one the doctor drew around the swelling, as you can see, its a vast improvement.
As for the cat, hes still there, as of last night, anyway. Abby's mom, however, has convinced her that if she continues feeding him, she could spread rabies to Cooper and Furball (her cats). Honestly, this woman is a nurse so she should know how diseases spread. It is HIGHLY unlikely that she could spread rabies or most other feline diseases to them because most diseases like that require direct contact or in some cases sharing a bowl of food or water. I hope Abby doesnt stop feeding him. Even one can of wet food a day would help him. If she doesnt, I will. I will also continue to search for someone who can help him and who will give him the love and attention he needs. I would hate to see him go ferral out there.
This is what my hand looked like the next morning after I had attempted to scruff him and carry him to the car. I had him scruffed properly, at first, but he jerked and my grip moved, I guess, and he fought wildly, biting me two or three times and clawing the shit out of my hand. I couldn't blame him for it, it was my own fault I tried to pick up a stray cat and he got scared, I think.
I called PAWS, our local no kill animal shelter and they told me that there was no animal control in our county and that if the cat were to be brought in, I had to bring him in myself. The lady was VERY rude and unhelpful, though Im not sure why I was surprised, every time I've been up there, the person I've dealt with was highly unfriendly and grumpy. I wanted to go up there while my hand was still in bad shape and tell them "THIS is what happens when you say that to people!" Also, she lied about animal control, I knew this as soon as she said it because my room mate's mom is an animal control officer. ANIMAL CONTROL SHARES A BUILDING WITH PAWS! So this lady... They need to get rid of her, hes either stupid or just THAT unpleasant.
-- On that note, is it too much to ask that the people working in animal hospitals, shelters, and clinics be friendly? The techs (or maybe they're just office people and not techs, one cant always be sure) who work in the little veterinary clinic I take Nymeria to tend to be unfriendly. There's a couple who are nice but a couple of them are just very short with you when you have questions. The vets themselves are very friendly, however and that makes up for a lot of it.
Anyhow, I went to work the day the above picture was taken and went straight to the office to bandage my hand and fingers. My boss walked in and looked at my hand covered in blue bandaids and said "I don't think I can let you work like that." she was less concerned about how my hand looked all wrapped in blue than she was about the amount of swelling that had happened slowly throughout the day, slowly enough that I hadn't really noticed it. She sent me home and instructed me to go straight to the ER.
Evan drove me. It took two hours for them to get me into a room divided by two curtains. Then for another two hours I listened to an elderly man continuously tell his wife "Just let me know, whatever you need, I'll get it for you. whatever you need." I felt awful. For at least the last thirty minutes or so, I had fallen asleep. The doctor finally came in and looked at my hand, she drew lines around the swelling and took me to do a test or two and x ray my hand. After that I had to file a report of the animal bite to be sent to Animal Control, I was sure to underline the part where PAWS had told me there was no animal control in this county.
It also turned out that one of the cooks from work was in the room on the other side of me with his girlfriend (who is also one of our waitresses). Turns out poor Eric had slipped and landed with his hand on the grill. I guess our location had a nice string of bad luck that night
Anyway, my hand is fine. They gave me antibiotics and some ointment cream stuff to put on the punctures. The swelling is down almost to zero, just hurts if I hit my hand on anything now. I know now just how bad a seemingly harmless cat bite can be. There's a LOT of bacteria in a cat's mouth. Bites are HIGHLY likely to get infected.
As for the cat, hes still there, as of last night, anyway. Abby's mom, however, has convinced her that if she continues feeding him, she could spread rabies to Cooper and Furball (her cats). Honestly, this woman is a nurse so she should know how diseases spread. It is HIGHLY unlikely that she could spread rabies or most other feline diseases to them because most diseases like that require direct contact or in some cases sharing a bowl of food or water. I hope Abby doesnt stop feeding him. Even one can of wet food a day would help him. If she doesnt, I will. I will also continue to search for someone who can help him and who will give him the love and attention he needs. I would hate to see him go ferral out there.
Smores and Dead Critters
It turns out that smores were a great idea! We cooked them over the
stove (I have a gas stove) and enjoyed maybe a few too many. We're supposed to be going to the gym and so far were failing miserably. We explored my back yard after.
There's an old fallen tree house in the corner of my yard that Shay used only ONCE as a child. Its pretty cool actually, very well built but prone to bug infestations. Shay says it used to be an actual tree house but I cant understand where it fell from and its still in pretty decent shape despite the door not being able to shut anymore and the floor being a little slanted. am and I have decided to make it our lair.
We
also discovered a hug dead spider in my shed and buried behind some
miscellaneous junk is an old fire pit which would have come in handy to
make the smores! Shay has decided we should drag it out. Apparently
hed been wondering where it went because he wanted it for over the
summer when everyone was in town for parties and stuff.
My house just got a little cooler... And slightly spookier at the same time... All these dead bugs everywhere!!
After mine and Sam's adventure into the yard, Evan and I decided to take a trip to the levee to look for some cool drift wood. About a year ago, I found an entire cut section of a log and decided to take it home to use as a coffee table in my friend's room. Our room mate took it. I keep telling him Im going to take it back one day but he would probably be mad at me if a day ever came that I actually did. He thinks its his now. Anyway, we didnt really find anything useful but we DID find another dead critter... A fish.
Then,
on a whim, I made the drive out to my roots in Rising Sun Indiana.
Both of my parents grew up there for the most part and there's this play
ground by the river I remember my dad taking me to when I was a kid.
It was also the first place I drove to when my uncle first took me out
driving. We didn't find any dead creatures. It was getting late,
though, so we didn't stay long. However, we did manage to find
ourselves going the wrong way down a one way street. There was no sign
saying it was one way that we could see anyway, but we realized as soon
as we crossed the intersection that it was because all the parking spots
on the side of the road were slanted in the other direction on both
sides. Poor Evan was driving, hes still not completely comfortable with
being behind the wheel so he just kind of pulled over to the side
immediately to figure out what to do. It took about two seconds for a
cop to show up and flip her lights on. The first thing she said to us
was "You guys aren't from around here, are you?" she seemed kind of
grumpy, but shed probably had a long day and she let us off with a
warning anyhow. I've never been pulled over yet, but I've been in a car
that was pulled over a couple times.
It was a pretty nice day in any case. I've been in desperate needed to get out of the house and just drive somewhere for quite some time now. I'm not like Evan, I cant be content with just sitting in the house for days and days only leaving to go to work. I have to get out and do something every now and then or I got absolutely insane. I was also glad Evan went with me too. We don't get out much together. Hes a hermit in a lot of ways so getting him to go somewhere with me can, at times, be a daunting task. Its not entirely his fault, that's just the way he became when all of his friends stopped talking to him after high school or moved away. He learned how to be content being holed up in his room for days. Im hoping to break him of that at some point.
There's an old fallen tree house in the corner of my yard that Shay used only ONCE as a child. Its pretty cool actually, very well built but prone to bug infestations. Shay says it used to be an actual tree house but I cant understand where it fell from and its still in pretty decent shape despite the door not being able to shut anymore and the floor being a little slanted. am and I have decided to make it our lair.
My house just got a little cooler... And slightly spookier at the same time... All these dead bugs everywhere!!
After mine and Sam's adventure into the yard, Evan and I decided to take a trip to the levee to look for some cool drift wood. About a year ago, I found an entire cut section of a log and decided to take it home to use as a coffee table in my friend's room. Our room mate took it. I keep telling him Im going to take it back one day but he would probably be mad at me if a day ever came that I actually did. He thinks its his now. Anyway, we didnt really find anything useful but we DID find another dead critter... A fish.
It was a pretty nice day in any case. I've been in desperate needed to get out of the house and just drive somewhere for quite some time now. I'm not like Evan, I cant be content with just sitting in the house for days and days only leaving to go to work. I have to get out and do something every now and then or I got absolutely insane. I was also glad Evan went with me too. We don't get out much together. Hes a hermit in a lot of ways so getting him to go somewhere with me can, at times, be a daunting task. Its not entirely his fault, that's just the way he became when all of his friends stopped talking to him after high school or moved away. He learned how to be content being holed up in his room for days. Im hoping to break him of that at some point.
Sunday, August 18, 2013
Garnette
Garnette was created originally when Subeta.org first came out with the whole "Atebus Masquerade" thing. This was my first introduction to the idea of Steam Punk fashion and such and I then created a world based off of that concept. She has some elements of Satine from Moulin Rouge and some elements of Adriette (A Subeta character).
Garnette is a courtesan. She lives in a steam based world, a colony that has settled inside of large domes on the moon and in tunnels that go through it. The moon is independent from the Earth though is at peace with all countries taking no sides in wars and staying secluded. Life on the moon is grand for most, but there are still the slums. A small part of the colony that has fallen to hard times simply for being labeled as the poor part of town. This is where Garnette is from
Garnette is a courtesan. She lives in a steam based world, a colony that has settled inside of large domes on the moon and in tunnels that go through it. The moon is independent from the Earth though is at peace with all countries taking no sides in wars and staying secluded. Life on the moon is grand for most, but there are still the slums. A small part of the colony that has fallen to hard times simply for being labeled as the poor part of town. This is where Garnette is from
Polyvore Creation: Crop Top Transition [Black & White]
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Unicorns and Baby Showers
I bought that unicorn mask... Fun times to ensue. Perhaps even pictures!
I'll be hanging out with Sam today... On a whim I bought supplies to make smores so I suppose we'll make smores today? I dont know... so much for being workout buddies!! haha. But we really will be going to the gym soon too, hopefully... Im probably going to ask Shay if (once my room is clean) I can move the bike up to my room from the basement. I really dont think he'll care, it was his mom's back in the day and probably hasnt been used in years... So I'll just get that up here because it freaks me out being in the basement alone...
Im starting to feel happy again. I really am.
Cassie's mom had a thought that maybe she should invite me to Cassie's baby shower. Its a good thing she ran that by Mindy, though. I dont think Cindy (Cassie's mom) really understood that the problem doesnt lie with me... It was never completely MY fault that we had a falling out. Cassie never could forgive me for not liking her new boyfriend... It was a nice thought on Cindy's part and its good to know that the woman who was my mother figure in many ways for the past eight years doesnt hate me now that her daughter and I dont speak anymore. I will, however, be getting her a present for the shower, I suppose. I feel obligated to. Obligated isnt really even the word... I just feel like its the right thing to do.
I'll be hanging out with Sam today... On a whim I bought supplies to make smores so I suppose we'll make smores today? I dont know... so much for being workout buddies!! haha. But we really will be going to the gym soon too, hopefully... Im probably going to ask Shay if (once my room is clean) I can move the bike up to my room from the basement. I really dont think he'll care, it was his mom's back in the day and probably hasnt been used in years... So I'll just get that up here because it freaks me out being in the basement alone...
Im starting to feel happy again. I really am.
Cassie's mom had a thought that maybe she should invite me to Cassie's baby shower. Its a good thing she ran that by Mindy, though. I dont think Cindy (Cassie's mom) really understood that the problem doesnt lie with me... It was never completely MY fault that we had a falling out. Cassie never could forgive me for not liking her new boyfriend... It was a nice thought on Cindy's part and its good to know that the woman who was my mother figure in many ways for the past eight years doesnt hate me now that her daughter and I dont speak anymore. I will, however, be getting her a present for the shower, I suppose. I feel obligated to. Obligated isnt really even the word... I just feel like its the right thing to do.
Saturday, August 17, 2013
This may be a little weird
But I feel this desire to buy the unicorn mask off of the Hot Topic web site and just... Wear it... Everywhere... I just feel like that would be a fun thing to do...
Maybe I can make a plan of it... Maybe I'll use it when tax season comes around, I'll work for liberty tax wearing my unicorn mask. That way i wont have to worry about what I look like or if someone will recognize me... It will be perfect!
I'll be famous in this town.
I'll be like Batman...
Maybe I can make a plan of it... Maybe I'll use it when tax season comes around, I'll work for liberty tax wearing my unicorn mask. That way i wont have to worry about what I look like or if someone will recognize me... It will be perfect!
I'll be famous in this town.
I'll be like Batman...
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